Mixed Emotions

I keep thinking of ideas and ways of expanding my painting somehow. And then there is the fear of failure to reproduce the same success as the last work. On one hand, I just want to do very modern and stylized work. But then I get bored and explore other areas, going back to more representational work. Perhaps a sign of immaturity as artist. Not sure. I admire so many other artist’s work, and that admiration pulls me like a cork on the sea, washing back and forth with every wave. It would be great to be certain about my work and clear about a direction, never looking back. But like everything in life, that means closing the door on options—a near death sentence for me.

But onward I must move.